Kabira..

What a sahi lyrics yaar!! Language is not at all border to breathe the intensity carried by words from any language.Surfed and found the equivalent meaning behind those lines.Amitabh Bhattacharya has done a beautiful art piece, then comes choclate hero and beautiful heroine.Madly and honestly in love with these lines.Listening it more than 10 times ..

Kaisee teri khudgarzee
Na dhoop chune na chhaanv
Kaisee teri khudgarzee
Kisi thaur tike na paanv

How's this selfishness of yours,
that you don't take the sun, nor take the shade..
How's this selfishness of yours,
that your feet don't stay anywhere..

Ban liyaa apnaa paighambar
Tar liyaa tu saat samandar
Phir bhee sookhaa mann ke andar
Kyoon reh gaya

You've tried being your own god,
and crossed all seven seas,
Still, there is a draught within your heart,
Why is it so..

Re Kabeera maan jaa
Re Fakeera maan jaa
Aa jaa tujh ko pukaaray teri parchhaaiyaan
Re Kabira maan jaa
Re Fakeera maan jaa
Kaisa tu hai nirmohee kaisaa harjaaiyaa

O Kabira, listen to me..
O saint, believe me..
Come, your shadows call you [back]..
O Kabira, listen to me..
O saintly one, believe me..
What a loveless and ruthless person you are..

[Nirmohee is someone who doesn't have any love nor hatred, for anyone or anything. Someone who is neutral to the world and its happenings.]

Tooti chaarpaai wo hi
Thandi purvaai rastaa dekhe
Doodhon ki malaayi wohi
Mitti ki suraahee rastaa dekhe..

That broken cot,
that cool breeze from the east, awaits you..
That milk cream
and the earthen pot of cold water await you..

[Suraahee is an earthen pot with a long neck and keeps water cool.]

Kaisi teri khudgarzi
Lab namak rame naa misree
Kaisi teri khudgarzi
Tujhe preet purani bisri..
Mast Maula, mast Kalandar
Tu hawa kaa ek bavandar
Bujh ke yoon andar hi andar
Kyun reh gaya..

How's this selfishness of yours,
Neither salt nor sugar fit on your tongue..
How's this selfishness of yours,
that you have forgot old love..
O free man, free spirit,
you're a storm of wind..
then why have you ended
within yourself only..

Re Kabira maan jaa
Re Faqeera maan jaa
Aa jaa tujh ko pukaaray teri parchhaaiyaan
Re Kabeera maan jaa
Re Fakeera maan jaa
Kaisa tu hai nirmohi kaisa harjaiyaa...

Moondraam pirai - Kanne kalaimaane - Ilaiyaraaja

Family-The gravitational force

  Recently I heard this slogan in the air,"never to compromise with family".With all the nerve it should be holded without a compromise at any cost.To get hold of it ,many people does all the wonders in this world.Somewhere it wants me to stick to,but for what reason. might be to have a protective feeling nothing more than that.
  From my personnel experience I always correlate family as like "Art from waste".Whatever remains,howmany soever remain always try to make beauty out of it.Even if its broken mirror ,somehow arrange it and preserve it,though it wont serve the purpose.At times want to stand in one corner of the world where there are no soul to dictate me about all these fantastic rules of leading life with all these so called intangible elements.
 Doing many duties which least interest me ,one word I have to say "The world demands it for no reason" If I try finding those reason. it pushes me out of the bed.Wishing to dissolve all my queries in the form of tears standing all alone in a heavy downpour.

Mystical "I"

Standing in the crossroad

In the sand-dunes of time
I lost and gained beings after beings
Attracting an impediment after impediment.
Each time picking a suggestion from the sheet of treatments
Hard to fake my mind and soul with hypnotiser.

What exist always exist
cant be ruined by words and deeds
What no more in picture is no more
Even the pricks and pain are meaningless
When they are touched.

I read these lines that is true,
Most often meeting the destiny
In the road chosen to avoid it.
Can't help it  as I never expected these options.
And all the options what are intuitive too
Not meant to be chosen.
                                   -Sathya Balakrishnan

At times I really want to write without minding its outcome,as afterall this body is full of chemicals.

Got set free themselves

How to see a loss.As its from the eyes of parent or kids ? should I feel pain or pleasure putting me in both shoes.Finally my five sense friends bid bybye and flew away even without dropping a single word.I felt the pinching pain though I know it can be surpassed.Might be the equivalent pain when my mom and dad set me out.
 Some queer coincidence just a day back ,I updated my cover photo in my facebook profile depicting doves flight,which happened in reality too.I love birds flight alltime which happened pulling out my attachment. Might be my inner thoughts got activated.Reminded of my care and daycare for them.Laila and Jack sparrow set themselves free as they know to mind their flight but made me to carry a heavyheart.

Respond crossing reactions

I do one mistake again and again .It repeats not only once ,n times.
I say in my tongue ,I have emotions but not emotional which is wrong ,when I do self analysis.At places I react ,instead  of responding. Expressions are clearly visible in my face,quiet  complicated for me to wear a facemask.
    Learning one principle "JUST RESPOND,DONT REACT"

complicated

I was surfing my blog with extra keen observation,felt some sort of satisfaction.Images are more powerful in helping a person to make things happen.Inspite of all my mind is still complicated,self analysis says that my mind might be happy when it thinks complicated stuff.Been a kid want to publish novel,wanna win Nobel prize,been a teen wanna study genetic engineering ,wanna become scientist.Now being an adult want a complicated guy as a partner,want answers for unanswered questions.
Where am I want to be? Where I want to land up?  For some people complications are easier than simple stuff.IF this is the state my mind would be happier let it be..

Random thoughts

Brain is so confused with so many question marks.When I sat and thought about handling relationships,I should say it as an art.Some questions are haunting my sleep nowadays,at times thought that my brain shouldn't think too much,just blindly follow the process which is defined in this earth.
  If a person trust scientific gravitational force which holds and leaves things apart,then we should believe its true for any relationship.Relationship with a five sense bird,thulsi plant,a dog,a kid ,far living stars and 8 lac + species on this earth will abide this law.Anything born here should perish here.It doesn't mean physical birth but also it includes any intangible feel too.
 I can boldly confess that Iam bit worried about one of the expiry date which I met in my friend's circle.Though more than 20 years been traversed together,I dont mind about the loss of our relationship.I have emotions but not emotional,ready to accept the law of physics.Let things go if  nature demands.I felt one thing ,becoming matured,no fear over pitch dark nights alone,no fear about my protection which inturn would demand companions,life is to the fullest right now.Loosing a companion can make me feel bit worried but not to the core.There is an immense difference between a friend and companion.Iam not here to please everyone.
 People think that they prick by being indifferent,even if the opposite party is untouched by it then anger,wrath becomes meaningless.Really to say Iam untouched by sentiments,emotional dialogues,wrath of a frenemy,cry of a child.Crossed the saturation point when water becomes ice.I can understand the place where I live can least convince me with its deeds,can become a change agent without screaming for a change but who wants a life where you want to fight each day.I know well this content has no great connectivity with each paragraphs but somehow I gave up my random thoughts.

A walk to remember-Amma

YA ,I heard today as Mother's day... I found my brain remained as static as it is even after hearing Mother's day.Some friends came out with their unusual questions,haven't you wished mom?  usual question but to a wrong person. I replied them with a smile "wanna wish my adopted mom as my biological mom went for a space trip".
 Such a beautiful relationship in this universe which can define the term "love" in all facets.Many debates I crossed, as I believe only lust prevails in this earth and if at all "love" exist its only with the lady with whom we shared the umbilical cord.She can pour all emotions and senti's of the world ,that makes us to weep even if she is not here.
 Truly to say ,that equivalent feel I got with the mom of my best pal.I adopted her as my mom.A gentle lady who pours affection in all direction. At times her affection kills me.Amidst all the relationship ,I love the soothness with amma and correctness of a guru.Being a mom is something special and being a kid for living mom is something more special.At times missing those extended hand which can serve me even in washroom  when I was in bed return mode."Thanks" would be an insulting word if I use it ,