letter to chirax

Dear Chirax,
                For past couple of  days my mind compiles this letter,but unable to put it in words.Sometimes too personnel stuff  can hang in my wall,as that is what adding facevalue to my social life,making me a better person.What to be corrected in talk,what should be left as it is,how still the behavior should be made better,and many many subtle things.If I want to speak about anchor as of now,it is she who makes me feel "being at home".Still I have the habit of sharing microstuff happened through out the day,earlier it was with mom and now it is chirax."The mocking comment with hidden happiness within"  common in both these people of smile.I dont believe in man-made relationship as someway or other it looks like smile on plastic doll's face.Things when it happen by its own with enough amount of time ,that electrovalent bond creates simply a magic.
               Without you ,I would have done my Post Graduate but might have missed the charm in my face when I disclose my percentage first  to you.I would have walked for my classes with "Ekla chalore song" but missed those long calls when I burst out with  my pain while balancing academics and career.I would have missed those redwine bottles which you happily buy for me after each of my stressful exams.I would have missed those oranges and apples which you get for me before each session ,just not to sleep.I would have missed all your day-in and day-out calls which checks my half written notes and my group gossips.You might not have seen some faces ,but you know groups and sub-groups created out of my personnel and official life.
              If I want to recreate few moments,most probably my moments with you.Sometimes I dont regret for being emotional .I know there is  never been a word "Thanks" between us.Nevertheless,Its my time to convey the feel in my letters.My mind knows,you are least bothered to read but if there is a chance ,I would love that moment.Inherited a lot from you though we dont share same mother tongue dear.Your one thought about me is "Iam let go" types which is seldom true but not all times.Its not me the reason,when man and material expires by itself ,it moves out of time.Loving you as always in abundance :)

wedlock-question of the hour

They say Marriages are made in heaven,this is how our culture taught us,this is what contract demands for one certificate which will expire in next 35 years.All purity and sanctity comes majorly out of fat cheques and hot cash.The real truth protected by body of lies.Rolling out of laughter as Iam in this  phase now,going speechless with layer of thoughts retrospecting the whole concept .
My mind always been a tricky quiz master,which puts forth questions again and again ,puzzled,perplexed in this subject,as this one subject "wedding"which I want to escape from.Not because its a fashion of this era,there is a strong reason behind it.What I saw,what I perceived failed to add ray of hope.Though I have heard of 10 storybook weddings,that one is enough to add fuel to the fire.
Dowries in the name of  prestige flag ,polished talk,50 facts out of 100 true facts,creating a so-called right image in this so-called good society.What am I trying to finally achieve,impress one single soul in the matrimony market?
Answerless subjective question , to be answered before 2015.