its my 2014

2014 was in the way how I want it to be.I conquered all what I conceived in mind.There was nothing much to blame anyone as I had control over each day.
Here are Few memoirs which got imprinted in me when I sit for a while
So much moved by "To kill a mockingbird " book and the decent character Atticus .
"Re kabira" song and "wake me up when September ends" is in my top music list and I am so much connected with  intense lyrics in Urdu.
Received meaningful advise at needed occasion and met handful number of humanitarians and their deeds makes me to be still nicer with people(Thanks Lalitha,kannan,Raju bhai)
Heart filling happiness for closing with my master's exams and the crew I met
Watched a solo movie of Christian Bale in 3D.
Less I did with fitness,but more to do in 2015.
Nailed high altitude trek of 12,500 feet in Himalayas.
Owned 9 years old Veena and spending time with those strings.
Less I gave for society,made a baby step as registered organ donor but more to give in 15.
Adorable idol of the year is my Buddha bhoi.
Work and personal life had a nice balance.There were hard times but found all the means to tackle with strength.
Made peace with almost all,nice to see better free child in me.

earthworms

I know human behavior is unpredictable,but when educated people too use lame excuses for not abiding ethics, really I am annoyed.what makes a person to run behind power and recognition by finding all mean shortcuts without a stiff bone to be transparent.I am really just on their face when people try to get something out of me using honey coated words and in the name of professionals.I hate whisky words and I don't know when the world will stand for their words and actions,instead of covering their face under the wet blanket with sack of whitelies.

At times its so funny to see faces which speaks about fasting,karma,sin but forgetting one say"live with the transparent deeds".Either question the statuesque or live by it as conscious decisions are not something happens by luck.

travel sunday

Melukote temple was in my travel list for longer time and now mission accomplished.Though what we plan and what we execute is always with spikes, its a pilgrimage trip for a sunny Sunday with my closed group chaps of masters.yoga Narasimha temple,cheluvanarayanaswamy temple,sri rangapatnam and Nimishamba with its own ancient history gave us a cup of joy.

    

Here is the view of Melukote with incredible view and please don't miss sunrise and prahaladha story behind the temple history.

Nimishamba temple too had a beautiful history where sankaracharya meditated before years back.

Srirangapatnam ranganadhan swamy too happily lying in a single piece of stone.

Lot of history, friends ,puliyogaree for lunch and painful laughter made it a perfect sunday.

Buddha boy

Its not quite easier to make peace with the past,somehow in the verge of making it by focusing in much of physical workouts.gym workouts ,a good run and manageable sleep with small Buddha statue near my bed brings a Kind of let go feel.started to dwell with a plain feel with lesser moodswings.Every damn soul likes a proper checklist type of life with beings and material at right place.Rarely it happens for all and spill over should make peace with past .I started to make peace with everything, though its a harder phase to answer blunt questions by n number of folks of feudal society.Buddha boy  is my lucky charm when all other fails

long pending thanks

Impressions last as like moles on skin. Though I live far away by miles from this school friend,there is always a strong impression by his maturity in deeds,words he chooses even in half framed lines and respecting the intangible thing in a person.Earned a life time friend who listens real pain and gain as very few stand by your side in cemetaries compared to marriage halls and encourages me to finish the show,irrespective of any man review.Let me convey my big thanks in this thanksgiving week for Deva.

They say beauty withers away but a person becomes smarter and smarter not by flawless skin but by Graceful deeds and emotional intelligence to foresee what a person goes through by.

more to give

Its nice to be doer more than being a sayer.Slowly I started to follow the first,though It takes its own time.When my friend asked me to narrate about atleast one problem I have taken and solved in my society , I just rolled my eyes.Meaningful Travels,scintillating world music,freaky fitness,gamechanging books,healthy people web,four year plan ,few more philosophicals ,advises and my professional vision all the more to define my name.Let me fan the flame in 2015 with lot more to give back to soceity in terms of time,language,art,poem,hope et all.I have started with the first act of being an organ donor.Many underlaid plans are materialised in 2014 with a matured smile in my mirror.

lovable water

I can shamelessly say,"Iam an irregular fitness freak".I try experimenting all kinds of monkey jump,somedays with dance,yoga,running,jogging and perfectly doing none for few period.After a year's time I started with my habbit of fasting.Basically Iam so scared of fasting as hunger alone can make me short tempered.Nevertheless,this year as I wanted to get rid of all fears within me,started back with water fasting.
It was a kind of struggle to tie tongue without solid diet,but I managed it.Though I knew the power of hunger ,slowly learning the art of quenching hunger with water too.Yaay! my mentalstrength is not bad.

Few Benefits we can happily reap out of water fasting
1.Its a nice cleansing mechanism for internal system which helps in detoxification too
2.Helps in weight reduction in a graceful way,let me come out with results in mid jan of 2015.
3. Helps to check mental fitness by surpassing hunger and smell of food in an office lunch table
4.Someway or other helps in internal healing or psychological healing ,as stomach is given holiday from grinding food.I felt this when I get in touch with instrumental music and bhajans at the end of day
5 works well for cardiovascular disease,arthritis and few more (taken from internet)

Its a different phase of experience as I had too much taste of water in my tongue for the day.Let me go ahead with water fasting process for another couple of months  to come back with experiemental results,waterfasting once a day in a week.Even if wallet is empty on one fineday,nothing much to fear if I master this art .

bajan time

I like bajans for God,let it be in any form of faith.I visit sai temple nearby whenever I want to listen bajans .As I had a tough week , there is so much to spill out to Demigod and so I can smile with strength for forthcoming days.There is a small custom Which I feel amazing in this temple where we would fan the flame out of neem woods.I happily fan it as they try to remember  his one activity in his history.somehow history is remembered through small obligations .
 A serene peace bringing temple at BTM layout with mouthwatering prasadh and incense fragrance.

Run in green and dark

Run,Run,Run!
My lungs are happy with so much of oxygen to fill ,so much greens and black for eyes to see day and night.I love challenges and bet,now I run rigorously as because of a bet with my cool friend and the run checks my stamina day in and out.Now more than a challenge I started to Run for people who can't as because of universal challenges.
I find one liner whenever things are too much to handle brimming up above the shoulders,just run and go to sleep.planning to strike a 5k marathon before 2014 fades.

Nandi walk

Trekking in a hilltop is my favorite task on holidays.Nandi hill located in the outskirts of Bangalore is one such place to feel droplets out of foggy mist and to fill lung with pure oxygen.we trekked for 5 kilometers with trekking bags to measure our stamina.Targeting mountains makes a person to to see something up above with pride.Mountains teaches afterall new rythm for my legs.

music- my prayer

My wish which I had within me for past couple of years came true yesterday. I love to play Veena and its in my list to own one.My prayer time starts by four thirty in the morning with music from now.In the verge to craft the art.I accept prayer can also be a piece of music ,more than a wish I ask for.

Its my cherishable life event to pass it to my generations.

Interstellar - wisemen knows dark is right

I watch Nolan's movie for Jonathan's electrifying script.Batted my semester exam through out the weekend and celebrated Sunday with Interstellar.Smashing reviews flooding all over sites ,so nothing much to talk about screenplay ,direction and production but movie can be shrunk as it spills around 3 hours.I enjoyed dad-daughter chemistry which made me to shed few tears .Mathew has lived as an ageless being throughout the movie as the plot needs and his carefree witty dialogues added spice.Anne Hathway acted with traits of perfect Doctor with realistic flaws justifying Murphy's law.
   If you are science fiction lover,there is lot to know from wormhole to other galaxies, interiors of black hole,few examples for relativity theory ,five dimension et all.
   Breath touching scenes and I loved daughter's name Murph with its explanation " what can happen will happen" and newton's third law restated as "there is always something to leave behind".
 Every character has done their best and I agree wise men knows dark is right.Worth a watch in big screen.

it's gratitude time

When I was reading my favourite writer's blog I read a post on gratitude,which made me to rethink.showing gratitude whenever I feel and setting sometime in a day to say my gratitude to invisible faith is something Iam yet to start.I remember those prayers of gratitude during my kindergarden lunch break.So fresh and pleasant ,thanked God for those mangoes in my tiffin box and for the seat which I got next to my friend.Microthings makes me feel energized whatever big fat cheques I receive.
Thanks lord for whatever I have in my hand and whatever I lost.I learnt the art of accepting with brimming happiness.
Somewhere a beautiful island will save my letters of gratitude sent in air.

stay tuned with Nexus

I had a feel today to write about my gadget nexus4,which helps me silently in most of my microstuffs and makes me feel meh.
Let me arrange it in points
1.Helps me to connect and disconnect with folks spread across.
2. Skype app in my phone makes me to chat with few close folks from their kitchen,thanks for bridging the disconnection without a single penny lose.
3.Most happy thing is blogging in thoughtsbeyonddots in my travel with whatever feel stored.
4.world News in my hand with quick updates.
5.carnatic to folk in YouTube,HD videos to movies which I happily watch after sleep and in jampacked traffic.
6.Candid shots all my way with all options to edit raw photos as well as a wallet
7.DailyAlerts of drinking 3 litres of water to clear bills.
8.Unvisited places become next door spots with Google maps.
9. Last but not least,fitness app which says in my ears calories burnt.
10.Can record incredible sounds and moments.
I love you with all the more reason as you be my guard,friend,dietician ,secretary and my kiddo.

early winter challenges

Being fit makes me feel lighter.Started again with fitness chart aiming to run 5 Km in half an hour.A goal to target in couple of weeks challenging myself to cover 5k in half an hour and to complete fountain head by next Sunday.Beautiful challenges in winter makes me feel yaay.There is always lot to keep any person busy and my exploration is in midway.

Sarah Kay poems - I admire

I was listening to Sarah Kay's narrative poems "postcards","when love arrives","Hiroshima".Her emotions are well dissolved in poems she narrates.Now eagerly waiting for her arrival to India hence I can make it to one live show.
Poems are always been a strong weapon to release emotions let it be good,bad or ugly.I remember the way how I wrote meaningless poems in school,no matter how bad it is for readers I felt satisfied after pouring it down.I remember " only few words can be put in postcards,few in phone call,few in a conversation hence words are used to fill emptiness".

what more

When wilder things happen in life , the impact is huge and from that point view changes,stronger notions become flexible,acceptance comes in.I see a soul in me which feels calmness after four years .It wears the shoe everyday  with the thought"what more bad can happen".Though many faces I see for a day,the zone of comfort comes in when I spend time with me in long walks,in a good run,in an undisturbed sleep and a cup of tea in solitude.
I get acquainted with motley colored people with diversified stories and at the same time I find a beautiful introvert within me who is much happy with silence,fresh air and water.sometimes I struggle a lot  to feed other's ego.This is the greyarea I should work upon being in a society.

poem traces back

I like poetic tamil,it always attracts me with rich meaning and electrifying words.Bharathi ,Tamil poet is one such incredible writer.I have listened to most of his poems played as songs.But this poem always the one lingering  in one corner of my mind.The last paragraph might be harder to understand but its so witty to ask for wishes from god sakthi just in 8 lines . Time to remember

Halloween '14

Its Halloween today,might not be popular in India but much in other parts.I love celebrations as I always love history and its human touch.Holly evening with handmade lanterns,connecting prayers and few lovable souls.Here are few snaps.Its the energy,ray of hope which comes out of lanterns. In nutshell, death becomes after all hilarious comedy on the day of Halloween on October 31st

Nine lives by William Dalrymple

I am done with nine lives by William Darlymple.This book took enough space in my brain to think and rethink about the characters scattered around India.Every life from north to south,east to west has its own beautiful excuses ,strong belief  and its own contradictions.
 William has written in an amazing way connecting land and people with their own native convictions.From Devadasi to Fakhir,from singers to sadhus ,from Rebellious monk to Theyyam dancers.I found one similarity in all nine lives, either they have their excuses in the name of God or strong belief over whatever they do ,let it finding Kali ma in cremation ground or Devi at temple.
Its a good ,simple read with incredible detailing of simple beings whom we see in our day today life.

going solo

 My piece of faith

Imprinted scene at gopalaswamy hill,Mysore

There might not be a strong connectivity between both the snaps.But its my strong feel on solitude made me to put them both together.I am a tamed dragon now,without a feel of "could have","should have".Man,material,money whatever comes and goes I find untouched by it recently.Happy to see a monk in me ,though my duties lead me elsewhere.I find real sense to write the word "made peace with it".Iam madly in love with this solo thing

Reading Marathon

My booklist is ready now.Few irresistibles to be consumed before  sending 2014 as memory in my blog.
Nine lives by William Dalrymple
 Fountain head by Ayn Rand
Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri
Ground beneath her feet by Salman Rushdie
Gone with the wind by Margaret Mitchell
Thank you Jeeves by P.G wodehouse

Just couple of months in my hand to consume all.I have heard about mentioned authors ,read reviews but want to experience the thrill while traveling with them through their books.Let me start with reading marathon now.

Diwali 14

For the past four Diwali I have never been to home for the purpose of celebration.I feel so profound when I celebrate peacefully at Bangalore.Each year celebration is so different from one another.Meeting well acquainted people of the year,diyas and rangoli work in a quite unaccustomed place.This Diwali 2014 is with Lalitha &family.Had enough of homemade sweets,painted their entrance with turmeric-kumkum rangoli and diyas along with Veena touch.
As usual I met one of my favorite person "chirax" exchanged happily diwali gifts and satisfied Diwali lunch. There is a lot to speak about on Diwali from characters we loved in books to advance topics on parenting.
Celebrations always makes me to think past for a small introspection and I feel I have tried to be true to the family,friends and acquaintances with whatever I had.

parking by the parks

Parks are really a place where I collect all my thoughts of past,lovable past.I remember those days when I hang with my mom at parks along with acquaintances.Still I love to dust those memoirs whenever I visit park with myself.Grand old trees which holds all its emotions in deep dark woods,pranky children with fights,parents discussing children psychology,old parents resting in corners,young couples with what next plans makes me just to observe the ambiance without a plan for me.Sometimes living in beautiful past under the shades of grand old parks is something scintillating.
Big sky, gigantic trees with touching wind makes me to feel things decay and perishes by time,what remains back is gentle invisible breeze

job that sculptures

Clarity in thoughts is the one I am training my inner dragon with.As I have told lot times about my professional life which shapes my personnel life day in and day out.I learnt meeting nuances ,bringing structure with a plan whatever Iam supposed to do.Things are falling in a right way in my lifestyle by what I study, what I preach ,what I practise and assess.
 When we work with people who can give unbiased  facts for your questions,crystal clear visibility for deeds done and notdone ,daringly brave to meet all crowd of the world without a weighing scale in tongue,there we feel what miracle my job can do for me.
  Having a lifetime learning though I know a day weights at the corner  for happy ending.

transcendental state

I like few things which sends me to a transcendental state,nothing can bestow that feel
1.I love tong tong sound made by big bang bells at temple.
2.I love when my guru plays classic geethas in Veena and my hangover on Veena.I just forget heavens too
3.I love to feel the hum of mesmerizing wind from terrace when it goes in and comes out of lungs.
4.I love to dance madly without a rhythm for Indianised DJ music
All these teaches me one thing, there is incredible life beneath the walls.

And the man in his best

There is lot to talk about this chap.All his talk let it be talk at united Nations,in his classic movies or his speech at award winning ceremonies he makes sure he nails it.

So what made to write post on him.Here goes few legend.

1.Stay young whatever world says as age.

2.Do something new ever and ever as like variety in his movies,let it be work  to hairstyle

3.Do something for nature can be as big as saving extinct species like tiger to giving shade for puppy.

4.Love  money but never acquire by nasty job ,inspired from wolf of wall street

5.Mark strong  impressions by your act,whatever world prats at it-Django unchained

6.Never go blunt without logics and rational,as like his splendid dialogues from Body of lies.

7.Be whatever you are,cling to specific ethics of yours-Blood Diamond

8.Do mistakes in all probabilities ,but be a consultant at the end of day-catch me if you can

Give a damn to all other views when your conscience is clear and charm in your lips

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great gatsby

I have such a leomania,the best love for Leonardo Di Caprio.In fact if getting married is not a myth,will go with a guy of normal looks and Leo attitude.I have watched 90% of all his movies in different crazy situations and this time  Great Gatsby on a rainy evening.Movie has such a normal storyline,but incredible screenplay.Movie depicted Gatsby as a man of everything and anything.Movie specifically crafted to portray Leo's craftsmanship.
           Apart from Leo,movie has depicted powerlust in all cadres,withering relationships and a ballgame of those century.Movie had darker shades,lighter shades everywhere..One time must watch .

speed matters

Speed matters in life.I always love to write as fast as I could,talk fast,think fast.After 4 years of Bangalorean days,in a urge to gear up my speed in life.Every city brings heap of thoughts,same with this city too.In the venture of leaving memoirs and materials back to this city,which I learnt recently.conscious  disconnections ,go and let go attitude without a speck of crib makes life simple as possible.Not more to worry about Body or soul.

adjectives I made

I love long  solo walks in BTM usually in night with yellow lights all over,dark orange petals beneath my feet,few known faces on streets with sharp smile,long trees with squared streets reflecting dark shadow,Naughty kids waving hi from their cycle and of course street doggies with their rhythmic boow-boow . Just admiring this laddering.

goals '15

Few goals for my fresh 2015 goes here
1 .Learning a new foreign language ,probably opting German
2.Staying young with  much of yoga ,meditation, marathon of course with strong mental strength.
3.Learning to make more peace with any tense of life.
4.learning the craftsmanship in playing veena
5.planning for scuba diving ,paragliding.
Let me see how well I execute it.

memoirs

What is called safety, what is called feeling home.I came across friend's friend who bears the title refugee ,when he flew away from srilanka after loosing his bro in bomb blast.By circumstances his ma dwelling at another country.Rarely he received letters before years and no more now. As cruel truth is harder to accept he believes the one opposite to it.This person always been a ray of hope in his own ways,never been a specimen of pity.What war can teach us  to pick all ashes Without dissolving it.Lot of difference it makes when you  worry in a calm land and in an agitated land.

solid wrath

When people irritate with their requirements , bulldozing their thoughts over me for the sake of doing it,makes me to curse the society I born.I born in a society where people bothered about royal weddings though family crashes.A society where they want to spend lakhs for a scene,unquestioning grooms whose education void of ethics,so-called rational girls immersed in makeover.And they together call it as big bang cultured wedding.Let almighty save this feudal society.
Weddings are celebration when it starts with zero investment and a signature of commitment believing one and  only four hands .

Subbu's code

This is the book which I bought with all hurry and completed in one swing ,crazily at office.Subbu's code has cartoons throughout with witty lines engulfing  message and fun.Author has got good comic sense which we can smell it from acknowledgement to epilogue.Pictures were speaking to readers in their own style.Author has built a strong character for Mrs.Subbu though she comes less frequently in the plot.Her explanation suppressing superstitious thoughts with her rationality is cool. As a whole,subbu's code is a book of fun ,pictures and message.worth a read.
P.S: Author Balasubramanian ,friend cum wellwisher deserves hip,hip hurrah for bringing back the culture of graphic books.

Mary Kom Movie for a gentle push

Mary kom movie is the last unvisited movie in my laptop as of now, hence went in a jet speed with fast forwards after a mediocre lunch.I felt this movie as like any other A to Z fighter types  Bhaag milka Bhaag,Chak De India.Similar  storyline where survival of fittest works. A poor girl from small hill town traces her interest,ran behind it and how she stays with it is the crux.Priyanka chopra has done a good job capturing local slang to rigorous shots ditto as an athelet. I really admire mentor-mentee relationship,which has come so well in this movie too.Sunil Thapa  has lived as coach throughout the movie .Craftmanship has come out incredibly well.Thin but stronger line of love and emotions has come out  well too.Songs of all genre,real life story with philosophicals here and there makes everyone to say worth for a watch at the end.Though there were many other characters to narrate about,I found impact out of Mery Kom and her coach.

Impressions

I have painful laughter with kids and pets.I made a practice to spend at least few hours with them everyday.Whenever I read quotes which I enjoy, I notice superficial quotes on love,affection et al.Probably all speaks one and the same socalled sadness and sorrow.As people grow up they write quotes,but kids and pets expresses it without holding it.I find this kid who usually says "love you" and "take care" to me,fellowmates and of course to our street dogs.I learnt many from her ,how to express beautiful emotions without a wrapper around it.And these are called my lovable moments.

crystal clear

Whenever I see people with clear vision,I have unusual happiness.Just a simple talk with them clears my mind from thousand thoughts.when people shower clarity in equations,mathematical models  they are bit clear with personalized equations too.Had a healthy conversation with my boss where topic touches everything as a whole.Grey areas are  clearly visible in my eyes compared to black and white.Sometimes harder to put all thoughts in words.While speaking with clearheaded people,it soothes me ,Strengthens me  and makes me to take life less serious.

fortnightly movies

I have become a movie buff again,bunking mid semester exam for a sake of movie.Here goes collection of movie reviews
Sigaram dhodu:
 Had a good watch with my M.S folks after bunking mid semester exam.Its a pleasure to watch movie in my native language,where local jokes can be felt as it is.storyline is good with vikram Prabhu as hero.Again a thriller movie from his side ,this time dived deeper into ATM robbery.loving thrillers all the way,as it gives puzzles for my brain.Neverthe less,songs are not promising but enjoyed trekking spots pictured.One time watch with  pals.
Finding Fanny:
From my perspective, movie has nothing in it..I expected much similar storyline of Letters to Juliet movie but as a whole,its a big mess.As I am hardcore fan of Deepika ,I thought of watching it in bigscreen but thanks to my room mate ,who brought movie to my lap.Literally bored of with dull music ,monotonous scenes and nothing more than so called term love and lust.Never I recommend anyone to watch,not even a try

Jigardhanda:
      Its one such good movie again in my native language and movie revolves in and around Madurai.So much connected as I am after all maduraivasi.It has a good storyline with lot of for loops.Director Karthik has done a clean literature survey of Madurai from local dhadhas to kodhu parotta,from sourashtra clan to sundaram sarees.Serious scenes are diluted with comic sense. Director is inspired by Tarantino's style and it's clearly visible in most of scenes,good try .Limited philosophies,lot of actions inplace of words .As a whole nice watch for Saturday noon.

To kill a mockingbird

Took such a long time to write review on "To kill a Mocking bird",doubting my wittiness while condensing it .One such book I enjoyed thoroughly where nearby voices became mere sound.Author Harper Lee has given life to characters by her casualwords and powerful ideas.Its a book which made me feel the intangible thing lying beneath every soul which is rarely exposed after a threshold point.Let it be black,white,kid,lunatic,father or a friend everyone has a view ,that need to be respected ,can be negated without crushing their view.Author has penned down  her beautiful experimentation with human behavior.Atticus,Scout and Jem Finch are memorable characters.I found a great impact on me by this solid book.Atticus has a powerful convincing skill as a father, as a lawyer,as a citizen,as a fellowmate and he can do justice to any role he gets at any point.I am impressed by his graceful context switching.
                         One such read might take quite longer time to forget.

handful of ashes

Slightly when I turn back and see,surprised with who stands back.Bagful of memories,ashes,dangling pointers, yesterday's echoes and different versions of Bye at different stops. Its a hallucination period between two endpoints.Foolishly romantic with life inspite of knowing its a mere humbug

My acceptance

I rejected a lot before months from bedsheet colors to pens.Still choosy as of date from friends to attire but with good level of acceptance installed.I accept now whatever comes on my way.I have friends in all ages ,I learnt to start my dwelling in a new place,I accepted visible stitchmarks on my hand.I accepted death and changing colors.I accepted easy sorries and solo travels.I accept the word orphan.I accept my color,castes ,history and  my dogmatism.I accept a lot now but with few if's  and but's.Time to pat on my shoulders for accepting as it is.

beautiful souls

A small help sometimes makes us to wink our eyes.It creates immense respect over the person when its been done at right time.There were couple of incidents yesterday which triggered me to write.My Boss offered a tissue paper for the server who spilled few servings on his shirt,touched by it.
My senior colleague who sensed my medical emergency, drove me all the way to medical shop amidst her schedules. I learn a lot through beautiful experiences. Genuinely beautiful souls.

Its a melody

When people are in the venture Of finding fat cheques,Adding one more name behind names,welcoming newcomers to their world,I wake up in that same rhythm with half turned pages over my hands and happily treating inner kid with books,meaningful travels,challenges,exams,music,healthy diet and red wine.I like speedy thriller movies,but not in my personal life.Great feeling when  u feel gentle breeze in land of hurricanes. When we have nothing to loose,that's a tipping point.content with the place I sleep and food I eat,but I always need a guru in all my ways ,can be as simple as having a photo in my wallet .

zone of discomfort

I update my versions,I follow few protocols which I expect it from any being.I can't give an excuse to me to live unstructured life.
Few stuff which I really expect as ethics from receiver side
1.placing the bookmark in same page while returning any book.
2.abiding mobile ethics(deadly mistake to surf any buddy's mobile even with their permission)
3.providing realistic timelines in whatever the say.
4.integrity in words and actions.
More than above all,in the name of any tag penetrating into personnel space .Its not a rulebook but my zone of discomfort when people break those at least with me

Arima Nambi

Quite after a long time watched Tamil thriller movie "Arima Nambi".Handful of thrillers with ancient tamil name nowadays and now it's arima, "Man with the power of lion".Happily enjoyed anand shankar's stream of consciousness technique through out the movie.Heroine has nothing much to do apart from her native sentiments .Hero vikram Babu has done justice,not less not more with his acting style.Movie is so fast which any thriller demands.
Expected opening scenes where people like me easily bored of but then director tied with lot of twist and turns in upcoming scenes.Found lot of shades from Davinci scenes, National treasure and so on.good try in Tamil cinema with its own if's and but's.
Thanking my friend for suggesting a better movie to forget my sickly day.Its a good watch for any thriller lovers.

formless compassion

It means a lot when we give glass of water  for a person suffering from hiccups.compassion can be defined in any form, for me its formless like air.It can be a simple touch over abandoned dog, mug of water for a starving plant or can be phone call to sooth a sick friend.I love my small cute world where defined traditional relations are hardly found instead filled by admirable souls and jingle bells.

folk flavour

There can be many poems,sonnets and on.when poems merge with background beat(swaras of carnatic,fast beats of folk) it gets it own charming life.I love folk songs of  my native Tamil language which is all time favorite for rich lyrics and its own medhalam(native instruments). Freestyle folk is splendid to dance.I infered few
1.There is no protocol for dance as well as for folk beat.
2.Lyrics are written on the fly where over -thinking is kept aside.
Keeping all the manners I learnt under the carpet,enjoying with my pure village folk songs.
Whistles,kottu,kerchief ,urumi(native prop) makes me to take those dance floor at anytime

who moved my cheese

This time I started up with this tiny book "Who moved my cheese" by Spencer Johnson.In two sittings I am done with it.writer starts with a story using mice and little people as his characters adding lot of strategies to move their cheese.As a whole its about change and adapting to change wherever we go.very simple book to consume it ,if energy level is low.As a whole its a one time read with lot of cheese diagrams and tiny messages for the day.

Mirrored flaws

I feel really bad whenever I break invisible things,though I am so conscious in taking care of  it.This is my first post pointing my flaws.want to really reduce my temper with close folks,don't know why might be I placed few folks just next to me.Sometimes my words do injustice .Bit ashamed when I be an armchair advisor few times.

feeling younger with too little friend

I feel younger whenever I befriend a small kid .This time Kushi 3 years old cutie, who shakes hand calling me plain Sathya without any tags to it.Feeling young again when she dictates me ,"Sathya, math Karo".My friend never wanted to call without a name to street doggies.Chandu,Ramu are her favorite doggies of street.Let it be sai Baba in temple,chandu or Ramu at streets,or her friend sathya she uses same language "love you chandu,take care chandu ,babye".without a bias,her love remains so constant with any soul.So much to learn from my small little friend who happily says "Bybye sathya with punch kiss".

version 1.1

When you see death just a step ahead,
When you feel red blood of ten folks in your vein,
When you seek extended hands help for a spoonful of food
Cultures dissolved and that's the beginning of version1.1

stream of consciousness

Its eight in the evening with breeze brushing up my memoirs at my terrace.I like sometime for me everyday to rewind,unwind and to smile for myself.For some reason I like living in the past and that's one reason whenever I get sometime start opening its virtual doors.A pattern in me which that wind can feel and the vast sky understands when it peeps into my eyes .similar pattern we share ,doing things we ought to do here as a wind ,sky and as a homosapien.In this poetic timeframe,I like this happiness cartoon which makes me to hold all my memoirs standstill for a minute.

Mahaswetha

 Tiny book of 200 pages which I consumed In one travel to my native.I am so much touched by the postscript which expresses art as an impression of life.How well a book can be a trigger,ahem.
Author Sudhamoorthy has used Indian characters from  name selection to stage plays .In a land where 80% of books having masala stuff,I found this book crystal clear with its gist.After so called love and wedding what's next when a girl prone to leukoderma all of a sudden,what's her prejudice in small village in spite of her hubby being a doctor.How she pulls her back and starts a life from scratch in a bigger city all by herself when man made relationships fail.I liked the weightage given to each character, bringing a doctor as hero and twisting the shades  followed by many other .Author has done justice by weaving the plot as good it can be.underlying thoughts of any human which is rarely questioned has been brought out well ,introducing relationship tags.well written simple story for a night.

bees of same hive

Lot of friendship day wishes gushing here ,there and everywhere.I was thinking about it bit deeper,as today I got a chance to spend time with myself. Every ship has a face value for it and for a person like me its really difficult to wish acquaintances without a feel for the line as because the world wishes,nevertheless love is a manipulated term for me.
    Friends are my extended family in a way,few helped me to come back with my bone and flesh .few helped me to pick myself again and to fly free when family destroyed.few check my presence ,day and night and my health through their calls.Few take pride in my scorecards and blasted me for unrealized mistakes I commit. Few take happiness when iam back home safe after a business trip.Few stood by my side and made many things casually possible for me.I don't love air,I breathe it and its same here.few post what I write unconsciously makes me to shed drops and this is one as I could not put all memories into it.

Dhrona I see

In between rain from my jumbo office bus,felt like pouring out my fleeting thoughts before it dries up.Its about the guru-shishya ,mentor-mentee relationship for which I give all due respect in the world.Now I am taking pride of choices which comes by itself to me.I got a dhronacharya,who substantiates with logics to all small things without giving emotionally biased solution.He gave me all the chances to experiment mistakes,accepts my creativity without showing me ocean of solutions he have.With full zeal,in the mission of cloning his wisdom.All the way I choose ,I have a dhrona there.Now its my bigboss ,whose experience is simply my age.

void land

Barren lands are never irrigated
Though there are oasis in the desert.
Whatever I do,wherever I go
I find that void hardly said out

It will rest like those black dots in moon,
Hardly seen,hardly visible
But the crevices of wound is deeper
Like a nail on wooden wall

pune in my history

Looking fresh after a fortnightly visit to city of hills,"Pune".Pune taught me to handle everything by myself .I stole my time from tightly packed schedule and grasped punerian history in one solid saturday with my charming friend's help.Anyone who wants to visit pune ,can take "pune-Darshan" at Deccan bus-terminus for a joyful ride with histories of museums and ancient monuments.Interior city  still remains as ancient in its architecture and the good part is history and stories are preserved.
  Here goes the view of ancient city

I have missed few spots ,as  we were not clear with pune-darshan timing.We managed to catch the guide and the troop at shanivar wakhde,which is a fort holding few story behind it

Then comes lal-mahal,as the name suggest its a red mahal,where King shivaji spent his initial days of life.

I had glimpse of ganesh-halwaai temple on the way,which I felt should have spent some more hours over there.Very beautiful architecture and such a wonderful ganesh idol.

Interestingly pune history has place holder for a chap who helped the city with drinking water during draught condition from his well.Happened to see Jyothi-Basu's ancient home cum museum with well of water.

There is a beautiful temple at the hill top "chadur shringi Amma temple" where we want to climb 100 steps .Those doves ,orange statues and big bell made me go crazy of  the place.

Apart from this ,city has Ambedkar museum,ancient university of pune,RajivGandhi Zoo ,Okhayam japanese friendship garden with lush green meadows,schindia family's palace and Kasturba Gandhi's cemetary.I happened to see ancient Indian kadhi flag with pre-matured chakra in the centre.

At the last we hit Lakshmi Road for small shopping and for snacks.City is refreshing with its ancient stories and people will go crazy for Mango mastani,sabudhana vada ,vada pav though I dont like spicy stuff .

Lot of trekking spots available in out skirts,as its city of hills.Had a peaceful time amdist my work with one such friend Uzma Martur ,who was my guide to narrate me detailed stories.Finally have not forgotten to take bakarwadi snack for my friends.

solid reason

I find some sense,some reason  finally to write about my work for which I am paid for.I find a rationale in it,as I am bit convinced with what I do now makes an impact somewhere .Not less not more, 2 beautiful takeaways which can stir my thoughts told by one of my workmate
.Always recheck are we working under a smart folk or just a senior folk
.Every 6 months am I questioning where am I?

I found those healthy reasons to work with a right mentor .Job has made me to be so far from my blood relations too,which is taken in a lighter note.Had a haunting dream of forgetting how my dad face resembles.A perfect nomad in different cities,which I really like to and few folks connecting me with their care wherever I move on.After all getting whatever I want at right time is not a joke

private space

Let it be a bestie or acquaintance, personnel space means a lot to me.Not open hearted to share my room with bestie but possibly with a stranger,as boundaries always makes sense .Recently I came across a situation of this sort but I could not make a compromise with me at all.I enjoy the art of dreaming,reading ,blogging ,listening music in my private space.There is always some time for social life to mingle with and life with myself to feel calm and composed.

private space

Let it be a bestie or acquaintance, personnel space means a lot to me.Not open hearted to share my room with bestie but possibly with a stranger,as boundaries always makes sense .Recently I came across a situation of this sort but I could not make a compromise with me at all.I enjoy the art of dreaming,reading ,blogging ,listening music in my private space.There is always some time for social life to mingle with and life with myself to feel calm and composed.

Badminton time

Becoming child again.Took the racket and shuttle cock with my bestie,in the full venture to burn calories and to gift myself a physique full of energy and stamina.I take pride in looking young as I grow old.Mid of the year started with shuttle and I become a freak with badminton in my streets.When things starts as fun,can be shaped as habit and then routine.Its a stress burster where I enjoy to the core, after a full swing of mental work.

Someshwara temple-By Chola dynasty

Was digging into old age temples at BTM. Did lot of wiki search on this temple constructed in 1247AD by chola dynasty forLord Ishwar.powerful with its stories,Naga lingeshwara temple located near Begur Road at Bomanhalli has its own vibes reverberating since 1247 A.D.It has 5 linga's and the history says its powerful..Architecture is almost ruined,and I silently made my wishes in the ears of grand old nandi which I admired.There are few other left out sculptures available for pictures.Here goes chola dynasties craftwork in valour.

Good time in connecting with the past ,afterall people and organism perishes but stones and architecture touches life span after span.And I realised right now Iam dwelling in chola's province(modern Bangalore) though I hailed from Pandya Kingdom.

Book of faces-expired

Out of book of faces and I find it now least interested when people speak about profile pictures et al.Good to see myself out of vicious circle. It was a good time pass with learnings from "humans of New York","Huff post living" and many other pages giving me enough info on yoga,mental health,photography,poems,book reviews ,event reminders and of course birthday reminders  with fun filling comments.Bye-bye Facebook,as I dissolved all these man given faces .

going romantic

As like briyani for hungry man,its my job I am loving with my flesh and blood.You make me to pull out my bed sheet in the morning, setting an agenda for each day to pass by.sensed my busy life and Iam happily romantic with my work.Incredible to see a shift and structure in my professional shades of life. Running from  7 to 7 along with shuttle play till 10.30 in the night makes me to hit the bed as a dead body. Travel,data, inference,setting a discipline et all drives me crazy.Passionate  hobbies and lovable job adds every value to my personal life.Remembering Jonathan's lines,people are defined by what we do and not by what we are underneath....

unexplained

I felt the power of forgetting and forgiving things just a day back.very strange feel as like dove's flight.I thought of winding few grief by accepting Aplologies made by second person before couple of years,just a day back.when I was pondering on the past ,I was thinking so much about intensity of my wrath and the way how it dried up .Good to hear when people's dream come true, as we were sitting next to them while drawing the plan and now being casual strangers 

words fail

I got some luxury to think about words,words and its roots.How emotions,wrath and fun are closely binded with words pulling each string of nerve.We human mortally offended by words and rejoice out of words,whereas animals not.The art of carving images on rock to languages on books is a beautiful transformation.What language can do for a person,but many .In the venture of  hating words and languages as much as I love,for few loop holes where language fails

My Leader

When we  shook hands with few people or bidding a big Hi with mouth filled smile,that is enough for the day to charge up.I like this beautiful Hi of my cubical mate ,who wishes me everyday with mouth filling smile.I love to hear perspectives from any,as Iam a quality analyst.I have the habbit of asking him atleast three questions a day.When I asked about his favourite leader,its a fleeting answer, his friend who lives in the next door.He gave me beautiful reasons for it,not bothered so much about it more than his inferences.Everyone has a leader in mind and few might not.Leader can be as imaginary as Batman to as real as Obama.For me leader is a person whose thoughts and words triggers me to collect those ashes and to emerge as phoenix again for one more flight.

lessons from scrabble

We read a lot,write a lot ,we too speak about machine codes with zeros and ones.what will u do if we have ten alphabets in hand instead of twenty six.I stumbled while playing scrabble.I added alphabet s to preformed words,making plural out of singular.
Beautiful takeaways from scrabble game
.whatever we can imagine in air,think of what we can make out of things in our hand at that moment.
.If we know the art of surviving with what we have,might be a single room to dwell, rare to get into the trap of discomfort.
.As like all diagonals should make sense in the game,whatever we do with our best of our knowledge should connect those meaningful dots .Though I know its always a fun to write good things for the world to see,at times impractical to dwell with.

first reader

The power of forecasting your fate is as important as walking with them.catchy line stirred my thoughts for the day.when people ask who is sathya Balakrishnan,might be all my titles would have popped out of the stack by that time and the reminds would be an author for a short storybook. I visualized me as a writer,when I was in class five.All time my dad has been the first reader,as I had lot of healthy talks with him,not as a daughter to his father but as a traveller to her guide.His logics,inference,patience to accept stories without a shock towards his daughter's incredible writing is still living fresh. I remember all his looks after a read,sometimes a smile, at times a weird look and at times no comments.I remember how he felt after reading my personnel diary,happily he read louder with smile everywhere .I remember his questions about my  story characters health.Beggars car,Lola lible's castle,soodu kaindha dhuli,pracmas theorem, Manogtwist are all his favorite topics to debate with me as a first reader for my hard copies.I miss that first reader.Thanks appa for the letters you thought me with your hard earned money and being a first reader wherever you are.

Hands together

Few relationship gets extended,can be from school to college,from college to workstations and from workstations to personnel life.The term colleague gets evaporated and the residue is beautiful friendship which stands still.Had a homely Saturday,which I was missing for long time though I pretend to be not.We started by calling our names at office,then to peers and happily continued with dude.Few sentiments are always censored in my blog.But no worries when I become at times an emotional fool.Overwhelmed by few  special treatment which I receive in this piece of IT island.Going emotional again.We debated,we mocked ,sat in opposite corners for the same reason.Though the captains are for two different track,we are motivated for the craft we learnt,more than those silver cups.Still I remember those rolling tears kept  hidden in one person's eyes and gushing in other as departure letters are hard to pen down.I had good number of takeaways to be zipped from brunch calls to high tea,from books to gyans,from principles to rules,from wishes to pat on shoulders and of course from presentations to tricky audits.
This is the day where I spoke for longer hours  with the girl who owns above mentioned descriptions.Went back to those days how I was before three years at my home.Thanks Vindhya ,for giving me salt and water with care.

piece of advise

I get loads of advises from left,right and center.I listen to all but hardly take it,until and unless it triggers me to rethink.one such advise which I received before couple of months back,still echoes inside me whenever I wait for extra five minutes for bus,or in my breath taking time after jogging.I should take responsibility for all my actions and emotions .By default I take responsibility for the first verb and at many times I forget about the second.Its always been so easy to throw the blame on next person's head but what I feel,how I feel is only in my hands ,how I tame my inner shrew.whatever the chain reaction is,should take care of bonds connecting atoms.In nutshell, if I know to maintain the PH of all chemicals within me,that's the magic.

words echoed

I was feeling so empty after a long long conversation with my,all in one friend.All my thoughts echoed one after other from a strong wall.Life is easy when I talk with her as I don't want to act at all in front of her,as she can guess whether will I mark comma or full stop in my sentences and 90% of her forecast seems true.As I age,perspective changes.More than a bunch of friends its the rhythm with few ,means a lot to me.After a long time received corrections,suggestions as she knows to stitch my beliefs with her logics.Many times  good talk needed ,to let go many and to let in many.Had  a good feel,the feel of contentment  as like I have after having kola urundai.Thanks Subha though I don't mean it between us.

Miss chinchu- my cartoon friend

Sweety,cutie and this cute kiddie should be a  doll after snow-white.Let me introduce her to the readers ,she is "Chinchu".For past one week,heard loads of stories about this prankster.I love the way how her mom narrates about chinchu. Now my favorite cartoon character wont be Rapunzel,its Chinchu.The crazy stuff is ,still I have not met my cartoon friend chinchu but heard a lot.Sometimes I laughed so louder out of my control at office premises.I guess she too knows about me from the same narrator.Hoping to meet chinchu in my next visit .Its always a great fun to be with kids like chinchu who ask 1000 questions.in double installment.I might be missing her stories from next week as the narrator goes back to her base station.I have not imagined ,I will write a post on this virtual character.Its not necessary all time for a person to mark their physical presence,the stories and memories lives in an eternal way as like we give a structure for belief we worship.

This is how I imagined but with mushroom hair cut . Very smart who can  prepare her own sandwich without hurting cheese slice.

Little structure

Whenever I see glimpse of my life travelled through while viewing facebook or my blog,feeling something filling to the brim.I love my life in mid 20's as it has little bit of structure.It can be as simple as brushing teeth before sleep to temple visit on saturdays.I have heard and supported for few slogans "live how you want","Its your personnel life","Do what you wanna do".Now I feel its meaningless to say all those words ,especially to kids.Without a structure,it would be an amoebic life.In simple words,without a structure I can run behind any thing without using rationale.I take pride in giving a structure to my life.Structureless life is same as  a pound of flesh

Estimation - installed

Recently I was attending a discussion forum ,something related with my profession,nevertheless still Iam not making peace with my post  having traces of  my professional shade.Its a hot discussion on estimation.If any topic interest me,always find its shade in my personnel life too.Those are the post too hangs in my blog ,which has strong bonding with my flesh and blood .
Estimation,re-estimation,gut feel ,what makes a success story,scope,cost and effort estimate.....those are the words swirling in the discussion hall.My inner mind was just giggling for some reason.I have seen some really wrong estimations which has helped a person in a different way and right estimations makimg a person to dwell in comfort zone.I can speak all the rules written by Manu ,feeling myself as an invincible force but still my body and mind is automated in such a way to uncross my legs while seeing a person in half white hair.
My inference and reason for my invisible giggle is,body and mind has their own signals to converge for each process,its always been a special process.What works for me,might not for you and viceversa.Few can preach winning stories,book of rules,Do's and Dont's.But I always found magic in being a disobedient student to the teacher who enforced me Do's and Dont's.Even now the same.

good,bad and ugly

Longer walks along streets
with short talk in between
Days with introspection
Sip of tea glancing lovable blogs

pals replaced with gadgets and books
Though acquaintances can be made with big Hi
 Happy to call myself  a  true introvert in a city of modern age

Storm,rain and wind teaches me a lot
It says ,"Rolling stone gathers no moss"

Grieve for sometime and make a move

out of network

I have n number of thoughts fleeting together,which I find it hard to give a structure to it.Now Iam in the phase of training the dragon ,to live all by itself.Few giggle,few mock but each person has a bone behind the mask what they try to project to the world.I weep as much as I laugh,never had a sigh to accept it.Its my time to have  mild disconnection from my world,which I really love to be.Its always been so comfortable to steal others time in the name of various forms of relationship.Wanna thank few buddies who made me to realise my mistake,which I casually did so far.

temple for Brahma

Walking a lot in new streets.As I am interested in temples with grand stories and parks,hunting for it in my vicinity.I heard about Brahma temple at BTM.started my walk letting out memories to go in the air.Easily reached Brahma mandhir .Happy to see grand old idols for Brahma,Vishnu ,Uma maheswari and Hanuman with six heads.Remembered Sanskrit sloga on Brahma,Vishnu and Maheswar.Navagrahaa's are quiet different and I loved the place for its transcendence silence.Few images I managed to click

 

Temple for Brahma is rare in its kind.

Its a beautiful place where endless thoughts converge to a null point.

what weighs?

When I was introspecting my life for past one month,am I the person ready to give up many many stuff for the sake of profession,but I did.Left those streets, parks and my heavenly single bed with books scattered around . I never felt I am alone though that's the reality.Sometimes I feel did I made my life complicated,yes it is.Why sudden responsibility in professional life.I know that there is nothing as big and serious to take it to head.But I am matured.unconsciously body and mind reacts to it.Though many policies are strictly against my personnel interest, abiding it for the sake of commitment. Learning a new culture takes its own time and energy, anyways trying to make peace with it.

when kid comes

One interesting thing which I come across is "Day care for kids" at my office.When I enter into office in the morning ,I see lot of kids coming along with their mom.Its quiet interesting to see each phase of life.Initially it made me feel am I working with wrong crew,now used up with watching kids and eagerly listening to my collegues role as dad and mom.I always believe lot to learn from kids from burning curiosity to transparent talk.I reared birds and plants,next will be a kid.I might like the next phase of my life with same curiousness towards life .Parenting is such an amazing task in this modern era,where we try to balance the equation of multiple roles.I remember how I try to cheat my father and mom with my cajoling words and how my father is clever enough to make me live his dream ambitions.pets and kids can make you forget your age.

Inspired

Whenever people ask me about my favourite actress,its Deepika Padukone .Not only because of her dazzling face,something more than that which made me clinged to

• Ofcoure her closeup smile which adds confidence to her attitude
• Deepika's composed talk,whatever silly questions shooted by spectators,hardly I have seen her jumping out of temper
• Athlet's atttitude which reveals physical fitness and mental fitness are directly proportional to each other
• Her choosy and witty words ,never to be entangled with situations
• Exponential growth in her career which is a breakthrough, narrates success never comes out of shortcuts.

Lotmore to speak about,in nutshell she is a girl of beauty with brain.Inspired Deepika whenever I listen her short talk in IIFA awards.

Rich song in jadhi,lyrics ,swara....

One of the song which touched me with its lyrics in my native language and  composition.

"Kanne un kaalam sendra kadhai enna" thought provoking lines by Kannadhasan.Durbarikaanada is the raga used here ,which has the power to melt mountains and powerful usage of mridhangam moved the song from start to end.

The you

The You ,I adore the most
For some its the cigarette smoke makes them feel better
For me,its my bigtalk with you.

To be casual at any spot needs lot more energy
Its that casual plain life which I admire in you
And I know you can gift the same for all.

You,viral in spreading laughter
You,abiding protocols in blood
You,respecting every relation
Not more ,Not less.

 Rarely approached with agenda
Meeting request starts with "Bye"
With  this informal person I forget past and future
celebrating the present.

Dedicating it to Mr. Akshay Karthik, the person who simply made many things casually possible for me .

Siva samudra - fun of the day

This time while bidding "Adieu" for our friend before her wedlock,had a refreshing trip to Siva samudram falls .It has a beautiful history when I surfed about it in Wiki,as I always love stories .We reached in 3 hours after having yummy breakfast at Kamat hotel.Inspite of Mantya District being so hot,Siva samudram waterfall along with gaganachukki and barachukki brought life to the place with running water.

Its a feel of happiness while seeing smoke out of gushing water.I would suggest never to miss that Koraikal ride for 300 bucks,it worth it.Its a lifetime enjoyment when we swirl in the koraikal and whent the  koraikal rider takes us closer to gushing falls and the feel goes unexplained with lot of selfies.Its one such image captured by my friend and it stands closer to my heart.
                               

After a happy ride,we can drench in falls which is at walkable distance from this place.We thoroughly enjoyed drenching in falls with loads of fun.After spending funtime at Barachukki falls ,we went to Talakad and its a place with sand dunes .It has its own history,which I read in small pamplets kept for sale.Its a place where shiva is in five different avatars as Pathaleswara,vaidheswara,narabaleshwara et all.As I always love to have temple visit,I enjoyed it with the story .After peaceful lunch in small karnataka mess,we planned to visit Somnathpura which was at 30 Kms from Talakad.If a person interested in monuments,architecture its a place not to be missed.As its been created in Hoysala's period,same replica is at Halebidu .

Here goes few snaps captured at Somnathpura,will make us to say WOW.Its the pillar with lot of curvilinear work

Perpendicular view of stupa

closer view 

Story of grand old military in sculpture

And a Black pigeon 

I enjoyed a day's trip with interesting facts and pictures.There is always so much to celebrate in ancient monuments to modern innovations .Special credits to Mr. Akshay for capturing wonderful pics at its best.

self help

This is the post comes out as byproduct of my depression. Readers dont mind as this post is so much to let go.when listening ears are far,blog substitutes it.Me too becoming a victim of famous term depression,as I started to read blogs on " how to come out of depression".New place,new job,new streets are always good to read in blogs.when going through that phase, somewhere felt the feel of abandonment.Me,a person who dissolves piles of stress by big talk ,gags found a beautiful desert for a while.Somewhere some emptiness and I know the clear reason for it.Now I know the reason why many plants starve for living if we disturb its natural living.Now learning to knock doctor's door by self help.Non living television has become my roomie atleast to make sound.Working on it ,as I know to be a doctor for the world but not for me. As Its always painful to deal with a dogmatic patient.

Timekeeper

hurrah! completed a boring book "The Time Keeper",by Mitch Albom at my office infront of my manager.No other reason as I dont have anything to invest my time and so timekeeper.Not a good read.Though he is my favorite author,he could not bring out fiction in his books.Purposefully,I skipped last few pages as it squares up my boredom.Author made a character who tried to measure time and later he is punished for his sin of measuring time.How he tried  to convince two different characters about significance of time is the story.
 Time is something which brings in insecurity to human, whereas  not the case with any other organism over here.I felt Time is the pivot for  balanced process in human existence.If not hierarchy,dynasties,respect ,life expectancy etc could have gone for a toss.
In few places author made me to think more about magic of time and his micro stories on each character made my mind to multitask.If you don't have magazines at office,locked in a room without LAN connectivity it can help you to ponder your thoughts about time.
Last but one,I hate the usage of Father time in this book, as a whole its a book to skim once.

pile of crib

Iam a person who can't give up cribbing with close souls.whenever I talk its about micro stories for the day and they know my psychology as well.After heading into new organisation with new job description,they knew well I will come up with piles of problems.I can go to the extent of shouting from hand dryers as an alternative to hand tissues.
Same way I have jotted down my complaint list ,already spoke about it to my "close to heart" souls.Travel more than 3 hours a day,traffic gushing roads,in-convincing amenities,and finally team filled with senior citizens with one female resource "me".Somewhere some inhibition,generation gaps and tea talk with their children's question papers.I just want to say let's discuss something interesting,but Iam holding me with plastic smile.
Went to the extent of marking my sign off date after a year.In one corner of my mind,all these can be dropped into basket of acceptable compromises.Getting used to it for the sake of my end goal,should be the mantra,gonna practice.
I do have the habit of blowing my trumpet if I have a feel of something interesting.Yes! of course my assignment for next one year.Everyone will have plan A or Plan B while joining any organisation and for me its about the curve of learning,which one day will inspire me to write something about my career.
I speak a lot in my blog and with folks and acquaintances,by borrowing words from many books.But Time alone can whitewash few hardcore conventional things which lives within me.Let it be a good opportunity to learn and to give up my insecurities.