Colourful city-Jaipur in 2015

I wanted to write about my way back visit to pink city "Jaipur" in April 2015.I love this city for all time thick lassi which can refresh you with smile in hot temperature.Apart from aesthetic architecture ,hospitality is something we see throughout the state .Never miss the smell of babu bazaar,where souvenirs and other authentic stuff available at very reasonable rate.
    Hawah Mahal is an architecture with 365 windows.city palace still saves the memoirs of king and queen.Jandhar mandhar is a place where ancient astrology and measurement techniques are saved.Ameer fort is something so splendid ,surrounded by mountains,where jodha has dwelled and don't miss jalmahal view on the way back from ameer fort.If possible reserve an evening to spend time at chokidhani where delicious rajdhani food is served in rajdhani style as well as can enjoy camel ride,traditional dance,puppet show and lot more. Ameer Fort from my gallery

Day for gratitude 2015

I have written lot number of times about my closely knitted family "friends". Few blessed with many parameters and Iam so much blessed with few parameters "friends and great mentors".In this thanks giving day,I love to show my gratitude for all those folks who made my travel in this rough world lot more easier.To add upon,Iam thoroughly enjoying the ride with few "if's" and "but's" missing here and there,but its okay to be.Exclusive thanks for my mom and dad who brought out a better person out of me . Thanks for so much I received from this world and its a time to give back .

as we age by

Recently had a feel "I have lived so much". Might be Iam content with the pace I go by and grabbed experiences which I had not thought about it in mid twenty's. Let me thank my age for leveling me and made me so calm with things around.Its a nice feel to grow with self awareness as we age by.Loving this phase where I live with my convictions, lot more inclusiveness,unbiased opinions and much okay to walk on roads with unbrushed hair  without a thought of grabbing attention .Expecting the year to be  of much more sense and sensibility.

Midnights with Mystic

After a small break from reading habit I picked this book "Midnights with Mystic" ,my favorite preacher jaggi vasudev's talk with Cheryl Simone.Had a good read as Iam interested into the subjects of spirituality,somewhere a beautiful balance added by it to my life.
  After reading this book,somehow got a strong affirmation to start with my yoga practises and courses. Many times books gives me direction with respect to "what's Next".If a person wants to know about chakras and a book on spirituality and its reflections in day today life,its a guide to it.

To Do's '15

Goals and wishes make us feel alive.Though I have written a list earlier,its just an another alarm with realistic goals

1.To read atleast 25 books by the end of  2015,

2.To run for 10k marathon

3.To complete first four levels of yoga courses from Isha center.

4.Possibly learning to drive a car

5.To say bye to 2015 with an adventurous trip

joyful swim

I learnt a little swimming on women's day.The joy of swimming is something incredible. There are few activities which I thought I would never able to experiment in my lifetime because of few phobias in me,but now traveling in the way to prove phobias are manmade myth.Thanks to my bestie who taught me joyful swimming in chlorinated water at amusement park,instead of enjoying plain rides.Doing something new always makes you feel alive with fresh blood.

eyesome women's day

Women's day celebration is on full swing at my office with lot of lightning talk,fitness sessions and much more fun activities for white collared women. There was one program for supporting female staffs and nice to see such programs bringing inclusiveness and appreciating Few people's sensitive work which we tend to forget after using tidy washrooms,clean workspace at office.Token of thanks,small salutations for comrades at any cadre not only makes workplace a better ecospace but also splashes days with joy of healthy working
    

The Lowland by Jhumpa Lahiri

Had a good pace in completing "The Lowland" by Jhumpa Lahiri in a week's time.Jhumpa made me to walk in the lowlands of Bengal ,Bay area of Rhode's island,streets of california with mild tears in the corner of my eyes.I can't say I enjoyed the read as the storyline is quite  absorbing with promising realities.
    Story is about fear of facing realities and most of the characters jump out of the scene wherever they could not standby with their own situational excuses,let it be Gauri,Bella or subash.Gauri character is as hard as wood and I can find a self Centered heroine who can casually ditch her biological child with lame excuses.Bella,Gauri's daughter undergoes a trauma in facing the heat once she is left alone in the hands of her so called dad Subash.words, plot are carefully chosen to make the flow so fluid which can connect every reader to their own piece of past.
  Worth a good read,but colours could have been added for few characters who carries pain till the burial ground.A book of solitude,noisy silence and unexpected realities
Without a blanket of excuses.

PS: Thanks Chirax for presenting it and I went deeper than expected

child-like love

Kids are like both sides of a coin and their emotions perfectly reflects on their twinkling eyes.Its a humid feel when we spend a casual day with unadulterated affection.I had besttime with my friend's kid who each time reminds me of excitement towards Everything she gets in her hand.I love to gift her manytimes with crayons as she is an artist adding colors to black and white cartoons.The way she walks over me,jumps into my hands as soon as I step in makes me to be with the moment.I secretly admire her gushing happiness when she rubs redcrayon over mickymouse.Now Iam in the mode of playing video games as her love and hobbies are infectious.

The picture of Dorian gray

Yaay! The first book Iam reviewing after an obsessed read in 2015 " The picture of Dorian gray" by Oscar Wilde.This one book made me so much addicted to Oscar's classic. Such an intensive storyline with spontaneous flow in all ages.

  The way author has given lights to the character Dorian and then shades of human life with intense grey areas as time passes by are prolific,apt metaphors with exact measurement of words which can make anyone to stir their brain.

 Classics are just marvelous with their honey coated words which provides deeper meaning when we decode them in every line.

Innocent love,casual death,killer painting,youth pleasure, fear of upcoming death and bag full of regrets made this book to strong in my mind.A must read novel in the list of everglowing  classics

Eat,Pray,love

There are places to visit,people to meet and books to read as simple the say.Made a sudden trip to Isha yoga center which lies calmly under the foothills of vellangiri,Coimbatore.Welcoming squirrels,chirping honeybirds with brightly colored floras,color changing vellangiri hillview,Lingering aumkara kriya with beautiful silence  made me feel home after a years time.dhyanalinga center has world's tallest shiv ling dipped in mercury and the feel is something electrifying even when we don't try to meditate.Linga Bhairavi shrine is something interesting with female form of bhairavar and has regular rituals .Holybath at chandrakund is impressive with shiv ling in the center and copperplates tiled over the roof as an energizing mechanism.
  Dead silence ,every soul practicing kriyas in their own pace at whatever space available.For me it was more of child-like sleep after a long time with few meditations ,prayers and more of nature in full amplitude with book to read.
     Less of a typical temple more of an energy house with rooted understanding on hardly questioned traditional process.

wallpapers - mood easers

I have thought in college days what a big difference wallpaper can make to my gadgets.Now I know psychologically what it talks with my mind.Iam so particular in choosing wallpapers which can be a sip of tonic when I wake up with my sleep filled eyes,when I host a sensitive meeting, when I have my late night walk in pitch darkness,when Iam amidst floating traffic and when I want to see what I really want to see in me.Iam choosy in wallpapers as it has become my mood shakers and eases me in all seasons and those curved smile at odd times has become language between my gadget and me.

The fountain head

Yaay! Long read came to an end.Happily closed The fountainhead book by Ayn Rand.Its a solid read and I had a feel I walked with each character in a parallel world.As like Ayn Rand or anyother reader me too liked the hype created  for the immutable,self sufficient character Howard Roark.The jargons ,comparisons and the depth of human psychology reflects in her selection of words.
    Its a book which slices individualism,alturism ,freedom of being a species by itself without a bend and bow.Author has left few loops unclosed with if's and but's which adds a feel of reality without a fairy tale touch.girl character Miss.Dominique is equally competitive to any other character and she makes unpredictable move let it be filing divorce previous evening and to get set for next wedding immediate afternoon.Let it be Mr.Toohey who preaches sacrifice for his self fame,Mr.Keating who can complete a life by pursuing borrowed dream,Mr.Wynand who loves his words more than his deeds and all other petty characters  conceived a deep image in reader's mind.
    Learning to move with characters with a soft smile as I move with any characters of my day today life without judging it.words of few book can move me so much and leave me in an island of thoughts .

PS: Thanks Sumitra for the book,as I thoroughly rejoiced it.

National gallery of modern Art

Its a humid feel when long term wish comes true.I have a crazy bunch of wishlist in all ranges,thankfully I scored one by visiting National gallery of Modern Art.I had no permission to steel painting in my camera hence could not post any of those paintings in blog.very beautiful ambience with pin drop silence amidst this hussle bussle city.

 I expected a lot varieties from all over India from modern  Tanjore painting to manyother but bit dissatisfied as their collections focused on Bengali painters ,M.F.Hussain,few more British painters in India.

  Many painting and stonework had deep feel of grief,happiness,reality With motley coloured emotions. I love paintings and artwork as Iam a sitter but not an artist.

 Indeed beautiful silence with greenaries and history behind Indian art.Here goes a view of souvenirs which we can buy.

sometime for transgender

I hailed from small town where people are not exposed to complicated issues of society other than what they face for their survival. Hardly I have seen transgenders in my native and of course that town too created a cheap impression for transgenders among the majority.It's more like a tit for tat mechanism till now when I see in big cities.
 Iam more among the helpless category who gets scared for their rude behavior and abusive actions in public places.Though Iam not a person who can blame things superficially,I really wonder what chemical imbalance made them to show brutal lust and abusive words.
  Its hopeless to say what more they can do to pacify their hunger without getting involved into sex jobs and their tact of scaring society by abusive deeds.Rejuvenation centers should be established for transgenders to bring in a psychological change ,further brininging inclusiveness into the society.
  Still out of the blue handful number of transgenders pursue their career aspirations
with lot number of hurdles in a closely knitted rule based society which hardly questions the principal behind it.
 Its the same India where we saw transgender as a form of ardhanareswarar(Siva&shakthi) composition of male & female gene in one body and there were days people took blessing from them as a sign of good omen.Character by name sikandhar,transgender was a warrior in Ramayan which shows how a matured society was inclusive.Let the moral education get its roots deeper in society to weed out the poisonous plants.
  Let the society become more matured in handling Complex issues without being a wet blanket and not living as mocking jokers when abuse happens anywhere.

  

poem of gratitude

Thanks thee for the shoulders
Its harder to express
How it feels when leg fails

I distinguished which is worth for
And which I can spare it in air
Thank thee for compassionate lessons

If all hope dissolve too
There is always one  extended arm
Who reappears in bad times
With the same tear mixed smile.

Thanks my friend subha for your limitless compassion inspite of taking my temper at times.Had a long walk after longtime with my friend Subha who made me grounded in all my unstable days.

words

I speak with enough number of folks in the front of profession,personal life,art,music,psychology,education,spirituality,books and few more random stuff without a big theme.In all those talk I found lot of connectivity with one subject to the other.I learnt how important communication can be which can either shatter a listener or inspire them to walk with hope.There are layers of intrinsic ,intangible emotions in every human and we might not know at times which can become sensitive topic for the receiver.Emotional intelligence is something we can't expect from every being and we can't blame them for it.words,communication is such a powerful hammer which can nail the coffinbox.Its better to lit the candle than cursing the darkness .I can't change many instead can be a change.

uncertain days

After attending death ceremony recently,mind and body has absorbed so much of deaccelerating energy which makes me psychologically weak  inturn reflects in my health.I can feel now how much body and mind is interconnected. Though I try to neglect this body weakness somehow it surpasses me.Whatmore we can expect out of uncertain ,unreal life.I have studied me very well where I can be strong and where I can't hold on  hence the reason I stopped facing few challenging situations of life.I avoid those just to escape out of my inability and I never felt the need to justify my action as myself being helpless with situations.When I tried to face one such situation this time ,now I am paying for it.Let me pray for the sound health (physically and mentally) for affected family members and for myself.waiting to get over with this phase.

oath of the day

I crazily overdo manythings, let it be brushing teeth to closing up an assignment which inturn creates havoc at times,mind ponders so much into it.I have taken a oath not to crazily overdo in upcoming days.When we make ourselves feel lighter at the end of day,its a Bingo feel.Let the great aspirations what I have planned sound as any other day today activity in my mind and nowhere I would overdo anything inspite of hurting inner me.

admired page

Paragraph which I admired in my read.Last paragraph is profound and intense.

From the pages of Fountainhead

360 degree eshopping

I was thinking how eshoping has made life simpler.Just couple of years back,I was checking for notebook in half of the gadget shops of Bangalore.That was the time I was coming out of e-shopping fear after that Flipkart has made me as one of its loyal customer now.I was convinced by their service ,On time Delivery,presentation skill which results in customer win rate.In general e-shopping has changed the frame of traditional trading.Few irresistable books too reach my officesteps through flipkart and amazon whenever I fail to step into bookshop.In a broader perspective internet has made world more open and accessible for all.I can donate for ebola measures in one click sitting from other part of the world and order hot pizzas to anything to eat from foodpanda.com.Let it be earlymorning taxiride from one part of the city to other or sending funky gifts to friends eshopping saves so much of time in unsorted search throughout cities.

zen disciple in 2015

I have heard many zen stories preached by Buddha,the best part of it is moulding yourself,without blaming any creature.I can Say it as more of Buddha days now,I have spoken about buddha bhoi statue which I bought out of sentiments connected with Sri Ranganadhaswamy temple.As per hindu mythology,Buddha is an avatar of Lord Vishnu to bring in ahimsa and ecological balance. His preaching never failed to bring more of inner peace in me and most of my silly blames vanished.

   In my trek too I heard few stories about him and how mount Kailash too respected by Buddhist monks as it has a historical story connected with it,now excited to increase my booklist  bullets with zen religion core books to get the crux of it.

 

    

coffin box

Death is something uncheatable,in fact watching death very closely has changed greater perspectives of my life.There is a sudden demise of my office colleague today,now his cabin is  filled with air.I made my mind with few philosophicals and pulled all the courage to attend his cremation today.After solid four years I wept so deeply in front of crowd today,sometimes emotions are so spontaneous. I saw those kids face with those terrible emptiness in eyes,the same emoticon which I had. I never had those courage to see coffinbox with body's face,somehow I managed to do today.Memories have always been a dangerous drug to me.Being a parentless kid is one such horrible punishment world can give.        Let this world shows a way for his wife and kids  to be strong as It guided me for this sailor.

bday '15 - bunch of wishes

Birthdays makes us feel unusual happiness with bit maturity and self realization year by year.I wait for this day just for an another reason too.Few calls which I receive on this day but rarely on other 364 days(Ravindra Bhaiya,juniors,lovely acquaintances,travelmates,readers,class second friend and the list goes on).Other than accidental meet,I cherish this day for connecting with them.My habits some from my gene and more gets refined from people I meet and talk day in and day out.I learnt a lot about compassion in this year  but more to work on acceptance and dwelling in peace.Let the upcoming year bring many more perspectives and compassion in me.

shrines-replacers

All of a sudden  today due to some sentimental reason,I visited temple after stepping down from office bus.More than  prayers, I like this temple for its satisfying silence and lovely aarthi for God.I have thought about killer silence of  shrines manytimes ,but this time a satisfying feel.gradually loving this artistic silence in me and environment.for me shrines reminds me of Ekalaivan's story ,creating an image of Drona and made the image as his  guru who can just inspire him.Similarway,statues and shrines acts as a replacer,I see lost ones in them with the satisfaction of silent speech.

Ai movie - Beauty and Beast

         I was waiting for watching shankar's movie in my native language and its an agmark Shankar's artwork "Ai". In fact movie name attracted me a lot ,as its a pick from literature Tamil which signifies beauty.
       Technicalities with tint of science,vibrant colors,untouched locations with authentic model Amy Jackson ,multifacets of Vikram with perfectly blending BGM made me to refill the popcorn and to say " ahaa".
       Storyline is predictable,where the writer has used both sides of a coin beauty and its opposite further blown up to the extent how sensitive it is irrespective of any being.Vickram has reflected flawlessly on those emotions.Slang switches are so gentle and sandhanam,our comedian splashed his fun across.
         Movie is lengthy without enough speed for 3 hours apart from that craftsmanship of Shankar is reflecting all throughout the movie.Its a good watch.

Ice Bucket challenge at himalayas- Kedarkantha trek 2014

     Mountains teaches me a lot.Before my memory volatiles, let me put my high altitude trekking experience of 2014.Conceived a thought of visiting Himalayan ranges before six months and we chose so called easy trek to Kedarkantha summit.From my experience high altitude trek needs a good amount of physical training.But whatever the say is I prefer to do mistakes and learn from it as my willpower is something unshakeable.Inspite of having personal hardship I take pride in touching the summit at 12500 feet with pinching cold.

  We had our trekking experience from Indiahikes which is worth to do it.We had trek lead Raju sir,who stood as a backbone for all the batchmates to reach the summit.I learned what is compassion and sportsmanship from him,its always a joy to speak with people who are not driven so much by external influence.Trekking with eight kg backpack needs a kind of practice which I was not able to do in a full fledge manner,nevertheless offloaded

  I learnt the objective behind lengthy trekking ,its all about living with less stuff let it be clothes,food,oxygen and amenities.I just followed jungle's law as like an early man's life without having any sense of people,no grooming and brushing too.Habituation to -15 degree cold ,sleep within tents can test a person's patience and perseverance to the core.Nights were so challenging ,sometimes with babycry. When you listen to your inner voice while minding your steps ,I found it to be a meditation.

 Let me share few pictures which I admired from my friend's album

Judaka Talab at 8500 feet  with frozen lake .Fantabulous view with brilliant silence and it has its own pain behind it

Frozen lake and pine trees with tint of sun rays makes the place as a sanctum

scary nights with falling temperature but adorable full moon and stars closer to my eyes.

The shiv ling resting in snow at the summit and I happily submitted my wishlist.

Shiv ji is called as "Aadhiyogi" father of meditation and Tapasya.Kedarkantha has a mythological history ,visited by pandavas and Yudhistra was the only chap who was able to reach Heaven by climbing Swargarohini peak which is near to Kedarkantha.

Here goes the lifetime view of himalayas from the summit .I love this picture as it depicts a symmetrical view and makes me to appreciate the painter .A trip for self realisation as a whole.I hold a lot with me  still without jotting all,as experience is never a say but a feel.

Recreations

I was thinking about yesterday's beautiful meet with one of my good friend "Rohu" who lives in states. Its been  one solid year I have met her sitting just next to me beating ,shouting and doing crazy stuff with no sense of people.As I am a person trying to get satisfied with little options, virtually I get connected through Skype and does some monstrous laughter with loud noise and local jokes.
  I felt about many humanly limitations we have and operating within it wearing a decorative mask.She came all the way to my office for those ten minutes to spend,its a humid feel I can say.I acknowledge these memoirs as the probability of one more day is 0.5. For those ten minutes my office etiquettes flew in the air.Hopefully I would meet her again as she presented me time(watch) in my hand.Thanks lord for recreating few diminished moments back.

joyful sanyasi

Newyear 2015 has given me forced leaves with bed rest.As both feet are severely injured ,so much of external support to pursue my daily routine.Sincerely wanted to thank  souls who give their shoulders and my close friend Subha who adjust my chappal and being an extended arm and spending how much ever time she gets in hand.Bedreturn days teaches me a lot.
        As I say always,I hate manmade relationship out of wedding where deeds ought to come out of compassion becomes a namesake duty.I am so much satisfied with the phase where I am in as a joyful sanyasi.

21emotions

Empty Sleep with half filled stomach
Study in a halflit kerosene lamp
Amidst loud cry,fight and yell
Everyday is a fierce battle for this little boy
And again a day with a fake smile on his lips

Bloodstained scars on face knows the story
Tears drenched notebook pages knows it
Made a marathon for 21 odd years with 21 emotions
And he closed all those files tagged "namesake"
Now he feels how it is to be let free

Now he is not  a business magnet
Definitely not a scholar or social activist
A man who hits his bed with Satisfying deeds
And living life of king's size.

Reflections

In the verge of making peace with many more microthings of my small simple life.when we fall sick we start knowing how important our willpower should be.I should thank few acquaintances who came all the way to be an extended support today.when one corner of the world can bomb you with words that can put you down ,there are beautiful souls on the way making me healthier by words and deeds.
   Admiring this world with a new perspective 

when legs goes down

When injury happens in our body, we realize how important health is.After high altitude trek,suffering from severe swell and pain in my foot ,literally limping on the road,giving me sleepless nights.I was thinking about lame citizens where everyday living becomes a suffering ,let it be crossing roads to using washroom.so much I miss my walk now.
Nothing much to ask as boon from god except good health,let me get rid of this painful trauma